♥ Sunday, July 27, 2008 ♥

♥ MRT ♥

All right.. Today's topic is regarding the MRT in Singapore.

I dun mean the service or wat but the PEOPLE who uses them..

Reminders after reminders and people are still so kiasu to get into the train.. Wats with the rush sey? U rush in into a crowded train like as if u will get to sit down.. Chill arh.. Let people who are exiting the train get out 1st.. I'm not aiming any1 but actually its for the general public..

People are complaining to the newspapers that riders are not being considerate enough.. Not letting users to exit 1st, not letting those with priorities to sit down, blah blah blah.. Eh, come on lah.. U complain but i dun tink u urself are not doing wat u r complaining about. For me, yeah i admit. I dun give my seats for others. Coz of reasons PEOPLE!!

Maybe i'm tired after training n in need of a seat to rest?? Surely u would rather sit down rather than stand n then fall or sumting coz of tiredness?? Maybe i'm also feeling unwell?? Do u expect someone with a fever to stand?? Of course not.. It is in human's nature that when u r feeling unwell, u will tend to rest more which in other words sit down in the train.. U must be thinking why the hell would some1 wanna go out when they are sick?? Well, coz we got sch or work of course.. I would rather come to sch n get the attendance n at least get sumting in my head rather than sitting at home watching tv..

Has anybody thought of these hidden reasons before u go n stare at that seated person n try to make him/her guilty coz he/she is sitting down?? Eh, come on lah..

Another thing.. I the trains almost everyday to school so I tend to observe people on the train.. Nothing to do mah after reading the newspaper.. I would like to highlight this point.. Y dun u just give up ur seat to those who are in need rather than waiting 4 sum else to do it?? How do u feel 1 day when u r old n in need of seat in the train n no1 wanna give up their seat?? Think lah people..

Oh, there is this 1 time when me n my friends just came back from NCC event at the Indoor Stadium n we were all obviously wearing our uniforms.. So we were talking n joking in the train to pass our time.. Oh, we were standing (tats the gud ting).. There were this group of aunties beside us who were also talking to each other.. I guess that myb our volume starts to increase or sumting that it irritates them.. BUT, they didn't try to talk to us nicely to tell us to quiten a little bit or sumting.. Instead, they decided to speak in Malay (oh, they were Malay aunties) n commented that we were not showing good example n sum more we are wearing uniforms.. My friend was quite pissed arh so he decided to say loudly that its getting hot..

In another words means he's getting angry arh.. Luckily, they alighted at the next stop.. Oh come on people.. We are teenagers n we tend to go overboard.. Dun like us, tell us.. Dun go commenting behind our backs.. Just speak to us lah.. Sum more u noe we are wearing uniforms n can easily complain to the organization that we are from if we misbehave or sumting.. Just talk lah..

Then there is this other incident in the train.. Was on the way back from Suntec and it was quite crowded.. Typical Saturday evening crowd.. There was this 2 chinese aunties in the same cabin as I am n from wat i've been observing, they were trying to squeeze thru the train to get to the door so that they can alight at the next station.. Wat irritates me was that they decided to comment on how teenagers nowadays are so inconsiderate in CHINESE!!! I'm not being racist or sumting here okay..

U can just say excuse me or wait for the train to at least stop?? Dun insult in ur own mother tongue.. I feel insulted coz i was beside them n they were pushing me aside n I understand wat they are talking about.. Wat?? U dun tink a Malay guy can understand Mandarin is it?? I learn Mandarin okay.. They keep saying that people are so ignorant to move..

How in the world u expect me to move when the cabin is packed like sardine in a can??? Just wai t 4 the train stop so that some ppl can get out 1st to allow more ppl to move out..

Haiyo.. People nowadays arh.. All u noe is to complain, complain, complain.. Chill arh..

7:17 AM

Take a look at me cause I could not care at all...

♥ Thursday, July 24, 2008 ♥

♥ Apology ♥

Kae2...

I wanna apologize to huever is reading my post rite now 4 wateva i've done to u..

Watever that i've done, no matter how small or big it is, I hope u all can 4give me coz my lyfe isn't going the way i want it to be..

I believe that due to all the sins n mistakes that I've done, things are not going according to plan.. Please I beg all of u out there, 4give me.. I noe wat I did was wrong so tats y I'm doing this..

I'm a coward hu dun there to say it out face-to-face.. I hope thru my blog is sufficient..

I dun tink I have much tyme so I please forgive for wat i've done..

Please all of u..

7:45 AM

Take a look at me cause I could not care at all...

♥ Thursday, June 26, 2008 ♥

♥ I dun exist in this world... ♥

U read my title can noe alreadi... I'm damn sian tonite...

When i tink about it, i seriously dun have a lot of frens. More enemies than frens. Haiz.. Wat to do?? I'm born like this. U dun have to like my personality. I'm sorry if in the past i've hurt a lot of u guys but its usually for a damn gud reason. 4 me lah but i dun noe bout u guys.

I go blog-hopping n see most of my frens r gathering together in small groups to catch-up with each other. All happy-happy enjoying.. Me?? Nothing.. Left to rot n die..

I dun tink any of my schoolmates noes that I still exist. Myb they dun even NOE that i exist. I tink 1 day, u guys will tink bout the past n say," There's another person but i dun remember hu arh??" or "Oh, that guy arh.. F*** him larh.. Jerk.. Dun even care to remember his name".

Thats wat i tink arh.. 4 years of outcast n counting.. Might as well dun live sia like this.. Waste tyme.. Eh, serious sia.. U tink fun meh being an outcast?? U try.. C fun or not..

Not even 1 ask me to join 4 an outing or sumting.. Like "Eh, edil.. Come join with us arh.. We going East Coast" or sumting like that.. I plan, then i can mix ard wif u guys.. If not, u guys party on...

Sad sia me.. I work hard all this years to improve myself but still the same result.. Myb i shuld just go to the sea n drown.. End-of-story... Haiz

Then, there's this other story. Okay lah.. I admit i used to have hopes on u.. I emphasize on the word "used".. Itz old story already.. DAH LAH.. But u dun have to tell ppl rite?? Then the story spreads u noe.. Ur face is safe but where i want to put mine?? "Eh, edil.. U desperate huh to get my friend's sis??" Sial arh.. Thats wat my fren say arh.. The whole of his class laugh u noe.. Where i want to put my face sia.. Wat is done, is done arh.. Dun have to tell ppl..

I told u alreadi rite?? If u wanna say aniting, say straight to me.. I dun mind.. But u say behind me.. Wat kind of fren r u?? My own bestfren somemore.. WTH... I help u a lot all these years, i spent my tyme to help u, get all kinds of shit from helping u n this is the kind of gratitude u show me?? I dun expect aniting in return ar but dun backstab me lah siol..

Sial arh.. When is this nightmare gonna b over??? My whole life is full of problems n i have to face it alone.. Mom not talking, dad's always working, frens dun noe i'm still alive...

I'm alwaes the 1 hu have to say, "Eh, hi!! How's lyfe??" Then u remember i'm still on earth..

1 more thing, 5 distinctions big F*** huh?? Wats the use of having that if u have no lyfe??

I'm sorry arh guys but i have to say all this.. I dun any1 reads this blog anymore arh.. I dun exist wat..

To that "bestfren", now u noe y i've not "bug" u??? I desperado wat.. So got to search other girls.. Fact rite for u?? Fun rite telling ppl i'm like so desperate.. "Yalah that edil.. So desperate sia.." U secrets r still wif me u noe.. U dun 4get.. Not blackmailing arh.. I dun do that..

To my frens hu dun noe i exist, happy outing with the rest of the ex-classmates of sec 1... I dun exist remember...

To all, i feel sian tonite.. No1 to talk to.. So i just let it go in this blog.. No1 read mah.. Can be journal alreadi..

12:52 AM

Take a look at me cause I could not care at all...

♥ Wednesday, February 27, 2008 ♥

♥ The Return Of Me ♥

Hey, all...

It's been almost 4 months since i've last updated... Due to a personal favour, I'm updating again.. 1 reader is better than none... A lot had happened during that time.. Me being commissioned as a Cadet Officer, getting the O lvl results, NCC trainings, getting the JAE results... It's a long list of events..

Let's talk bout me as a Cadet Officer. I was commissioned as Cadet Officer on the 12 of December 2007. A parade was held for that special occasion at NCC Campus. I had invited some of my friends n NCC members but NONE of them came. WTH... U guys told me that u all are gonna come but u all didn't. Wat the hell is wrong with u ppl??? Can at least sms me or sumting rite?? Make me have high hopes for u ppl...

Next, O LEVEL RESULTS!!!! Well, unexpectedly, I did very well. Way beyond my expectation n of others. I was thinking that I might get the same results as Prelims which is 17 for L1R5 but I get 13 instead. Plus no failures!!! Just for the viewing pleasure, I got 5 As, 1 B n 1 C. Take that to that teacher who keep telling me that I have no hope in passing that particular subject!! What are u gonna say now that I get a B3 for that subject?? Even Aisyah get the same result as me for that subject n we've been failing the subject for years n demoralised by you. No hope of passing huh?? Both of us proved u wrong!! Go and do some reflection, lady!!

Moving on, NCC trainings.. As an instructor attached to my old school, I've been busy handling them n HQ trainings.. Right now, I'm in a dilema. I've got school training tomorrow but I have also IMT on the same day!! I've been looking for replacements and none are available!! Even them seniors are not available. What am I gonna do?? HQ or school?? SAVE ME!!!

Oh ya.. I'll be attending school in Singapore Poly. Course: Aerospace Electronics, School of Electronics and Electrical Engineering. Received a sms from MOE regarding the posting results at around 6am last tuesday. I had just woken up to report for duty at that time. Oh, I was in camp for Camp Feast. S1(Understudy). Heard that a lot of ppl are going SP. Gonna see a lot of familiar faces there.

This march I'm gonna attend the Advance Drills Course as a trainee. Not trainer. I'm still learning u noe even if I'm an instructor. Went for the briefing yesterday. Gonna be in Bravo coy, 3rd section, 4th platoon. Every cadet officers going as trainee for the course will be in that platoon.

To that sum1, pls come back to reality. Please be more of urself.. Dun follow others. U r making me feel guilty coz I was ur first.. Myb I shuldn't have let u go.. I miss the old u.. All ur old friends miss the old u.. Where did u go wrong girl?? Am I the cause of everything like wat u've been trying to tell??

9:07 PM

Take a look at me cause I could not care at all...

♥ Tuesday, November 20, 2007 ♥

♥ Uniforms Collection ♥

Went to HQ earlier todae to collect my uniforms for my CLT course.. A lot sial.. 1 pair of No. 1 (parade purposes), 1 pair of No. 2 (Dining-In attire), 1 pair of No. 3 (smart attire) n 2 pairs of No. 4 (camouflage attire).. Heavy sial my uniforms. Enter camp with 1 bag but came out with 3 bags.. Made a new fren, Azlan from Zhonghua sec. Knew him quite sum time alreadi ah but didn't talked to him much last time. He was alone n i was also alone while collecting uniforms n we ended up talking to each other..

Went to YCK station with him but split up coz I was waiting for sum1.. Waited for that sum1 n went home with that sum1.. Ate ice-creams together n then went home.. I'm very tired rite now.. My shoulders feel very sore, feets are aching n my eyes are on the verge of closing.. Gotta go to bed.. ZZzzzz....

10:00 PM

Take a look at me cause I could not care at all...

♥ Saturday, November 17, 2007 ♥

♥ Leaders' BBQ ♥

K2, let's get down to business.. Todae went to Paragon to see how Aisyah's doing on her first day at work. Almost everybody have alreadi started to work but I can't coz I gotta go for my CLT course.. Walked around her work area for alomost 30 mins but couldn't find her. Sms her, telling her tat we're gonna go home together. Walked around the mall. Quite a nice mall ah. First time sey I go there.. Dun quite leave home a lot..

Was going to the top floor when she called me.. Picked her up n took the train. Sumhow, me n her seems to be able to read each others' minds. We wore the same coloured clothes.. We're like a pair.. Talk a little bit then send her home before going to the BBQ. Aisyah's not going coz tired mah... Performance was over but at least there's still food.. Talked with the gang before we did this crazy thing. Not gonna say it here for our own safety..

Tats all 4 now coz me wanna sleep. Got to go to NCC HQ tomorrow for briefing. Heard tat sum ppl gonna be kicked out of the CLT course.. Hoped not me..

9:32 PM

Take a look at me cause I could not care at all...

♥ Thursday, November 15, 2007 ♥

♥ Malay Gang Reunion ♥

'O' Levels are finally over n its time to PARTY!!!! Todae we went to East Coast to enjoy ouselves..

Pick up Aisyah at her house in the morning before going to Woodlands Interchange. Everybody (Hannan, Faranah, Ahmad, Yani, Radz, Atiqah, Sarali, Filza) was there except Pall. Queued up first at the 966 stand n hoping that he would be on time. Gave him a call n found out that he was still near his neighbourhood. He had to go to East Coast alone coz the bus arrived. Sori man but you're late.

Sat with Radz n talk a little bit before we indulge ourselves in music n magazines. Reached Marine Parade n we decided to wait for Pall. I was kinda down by then coz I left a man behind n sum of u guys alreadi noe my conditions at home. So I was kinda outcast. Stood away from the gang n recorded sumthings. Pall finally arrived after 30 mins of waiting. Walk behind the group alone before Aisyah finally joined me coz the gang asked her to.. Helped her carry her bag coz she kept changing sides of placing her bag.. Talk a little bit.

Pick a spot n set up our picnic area. Got changed n its PARTEY!! The guys played beach soccer while sum of the girls went playing in the sea. All of was panting after a 10 mins game. It was damn tiring. Unable to bear the heat, we joined the girls in the sea. We played CHICKEN!!! The girls had to get on to the shoulders of the guys n they had to wrestle other pairs. Faranah paired up with Hannan, Radz with Atiqah n me with Aisyah.. N guess who was the winner?? My team of course.. Haha.. Me n Aisyah won all the matches..

It's all in the strategy.. Faranah's team n Atiqah's paired up to bring us down but soon, they were pushing each other while we just wait at the side.. Haha.. Radz's team was brought down first in the matches n all we had to do was bring down Faranah n that was what we did.. Let them waste their energy first before attacking them.. Oops, did I just reveal my tactics?? Haha.. It's all in the brains, guys..

Taught Aisyah how to float facing upwards.. She was kinda scared at first but she never gives up.. She was very happy when she managed to float at last without me holding her..

Had lunch before we went cycling.. The couples were the first group to cycle which consist of me n Aisyah, Radz n Atiqah, Hannan n Faranah n Ffe.. I tried no-hands n was able to do that the first time.. How cool is that!! Did a few stunts n finally cyle back to home base. Talk to Aisyah a lot during the trip back..

N then back to the beach!! More CHICKEN!!! Won the games again. Aisyah was kinda happy throughout the whole time.. Glad to see her happy face.. Then we packed up n head home. Sat beside Aisyah n listened to her favourite band songs before she fell asleep while the rest talk bout this girl who had been 'bothering' sum of the guys.. Pity the guys.. Haha.. Tomorrow gonna go for the BBQ.. What a week..