♥ Thursday, June 26, 2008 ♥
♥ I dun exist in this world... ♥
U read my title can noe alreadi... I'm damn sian tonite...
When i tink about it, i seriously dun have a lot of frens. More enemies than frens. Haiz.. Wat to do?? I'm born like this. U dun have to like my personality. I'm sorry if in the past i've hurt a lot of u guys but its usually for a damn gud reason. 4 me lah but i dun noe bout u guys.
I go blog-hopping n see most of my frens r gathering together in small groups to catch-up with each other. All happy-happy enjoying.. Me?? Nothing.. Left to rot n die..
I dun tink any of my schoolmates noes that I still exist. Myb they dun even NOE that i exist. I tink 1 day, u guys will tink bout the past n say," There's another person but i dun remember hu arh??" or "Oh, that guy arh.. F*** him larh.. Jerk.. Dun even care to remember his name".
Thats wat i tink arh.. 4 years of outcast n counting.. Might as well dun live sia like this.. Waste tyme.. Eh, serious sia.. U tink fun meh being an outcast?? U try.. C fun or not..
Not even 1 ask me to join 4 an outing or sumting.. Like "Eh, edil.. Come join with us arh.. We going East Coast" or sumting like that.. I plan, then i can mix ard wif u guys.. If not, u guys party on...
Sad sia me.. I work hard all this years to improve myself but still the same result.. Myb i shuld just go to the sea n drown.. End-of-story... Haiz
Then, there's this other story. Okay lah.. I admit i used to have hopes on u.. I emphasize on the word "used".. Itz old story already.. DAH LAH.. But u dun have to tell ppl rite?? Then the story spreads u noe.. Ur face is safe but where i want to put mine?? "Eh, edil.. U desperate huh to get my friend's sis??" Sial arh.. Thats wat my fren say arh.. The whole of his class laugh u noe.. Where i want to put my face sia.. Wat is done, is done arh.. Dun have to tell ppl..
I told u alreadi rite?? If u wanna say aniting, say straight to me.. I dun mind.. But u say behind me.. Wat kind of fren r u?? My own bestfren somemore.. WTH... I help u a lot all these years, i spent my tyme to help u, get all kinds of shit from helping u n this is the kind of gratitude u show me?? I dun expect aniting in return ar but dun backstab me lah siol..
Sial arh.. When is this nightmare gonna b over??? My whole life is full of problems n i have to face it alone.. Mom not talking, dad's always working, frens dun noe i'm still alive...
I'm alwaes the 1 hu have to say, "Eh, hi!! How's lyfe??" Then u remember i'm still on earth..
1 more thing, 5 distinctions big F*** huh?? Wats the use of having that if u have no lyfe??
I'm sorry arh guys but i have to say all this.. I dun any1 reads this blog anymore arh.. I dun exist wat..
To that "bestfren", now u noe y i've not "bug" u??? I desperado wat.. So got to search other girls.. Fact rite for u?? Fun rite telling ppl i'm like so desperate.. "Yalah that edil.. So desperate sia.." U secrets r still wif me u noe.. U dun 4get.. Not blackmailing arh.. I dun do that..
To my frens hu dun noe i exist, happy outing with the rest of the ex-classmates of sec 1... I dun exist remember...
To all, i feel sian tonite.. No1 to talk to.. So i just let it go in this blog.. No1 read mah.. Can be journal alreadi..
12:52 AM
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all...
